picture this, I'm just fifteen // self-declared power chord queen // in love with boys on a screen // confident, yet so naive // a man said, “hey, here's some advice: you ain't bad, but this world ain't nice" // gave us a hand for the price // of ten grand, and our civil rights adults, tight jeans, myspace angle // friends in backs of vans, alcohol // unplugged, air strum, full merch table // voice track skipping your free samples // manic panic attack central // turning healthy kids unstable // isn't what I wanted at all // yes, police, this place gives me bad vibes bad vibes, bad viiiiiibes pray to maintain sanity // these dudes dropped out in 2003 // bragging of their true love story // set in stone, it's statutory // no other choice, we play to play // sell my soul to cry on a stage // for men working minimum wage // and girls: insane and underage yet I stay // my voice still haunts the hallways // lost innocence // pledge allegiance to the pit

they tell you, if he can't give you all that you think you need // forfeit all his control for a chance at the dream // just start over, find another, its the thrill of the game // overplayed, underpaid, hide the script on the stage but, who can blame them? they're in love with attention // want it when you get it, you can buy it, you'll always win // try and align starry eyes when he shows me affection // but you're so much more than him // you have so much more to give lost this evening when I chose to give in and play // we had much to discuss, but so little to say // tried to settle for “much better”, received some jealousy // but those things they’re chasing after, they do nothing for me I'll never be in love with attention // messed damsels in distress with more independence // try and pretend, feign interest in the efficient options // but I know it can’t be done // I don’t think it can be done but, who can blame them? they're in love with attention // want it when you get it, you can buy it, you'll always win // try and align starry eyes, enter scene with discretion // but you're so much more than this so sign me up, you're in love with attention // I’ll try to play guide when you’re lacking direction // set the bar too far, I'm starved for conversation // without the prerequisite // these kids aren’t cutting it

babe....

the track was fading out // begged one more minute, please // walls did no job without the buzz of electricity // prayed for the world to end // thought it was safe to say // south montauk catching waves, this town has seen much better days :( so patiently / I waited for / you to decide / you wanted more // counted too soon / my hopes so high / tried to forget / still I want my manic pixie dream boy back again // this fate I would never intend // it's cold, the trees are dead // my hands as empty as your head // all this distance, isn't it sad? // remember all the plans we had? // return to me at last // put all our mistakes in the past remember when we met? // younger, but no different // your ears tuned into me, your mind went wild with false pretense // told your electric past // the fast life had its perks // improvised clever lines for me beneath the fireworks bent over to / bedazzle us / as if we were / hard to impress // they didn't like / your crazy act / but hey, I'll take / the compliment ! manic pixie dream boy, can't pretend // I ever wanted this to end // I’m cold, everything's dead // my hands as empty as your head // all this distance, isn't it sad? // so much for all the plans we had // come on, be mine at last // put all of these weeks in the past found you under this control // been there before, so I know // how well they play the angel // then deconstruct their halo // well, you escaped possession // but took off for the mountains // and somehow, I just lost my pop-punk Daisy Buchanan manic pixie dream boy, in my head // this can’t be how the movie ends // it’s cold, the trees are dead // my hands as empty as your head // all this distance, it's very sad // how we forgot those plans we had // return, please get here fast // leave those two dumb kids in the past

once upon a time, I saw myself observe a finer law // far away from planet earth, we watched its collapse and rebirth and now I wait / through every day / for them to save / me from this place this place. hopefully by the time we make the airwaves, I'm on my way // find me at our dynasty, and please excuse the irony but now I wait / low and irate / for them to take / me back through space .... frooooooooooooooom